Candle

(album: Monsters - 2014)

I want somebody
But hurting them so badly
Wanted it to work cause I'm the
One who loved you first
When I found somebody who
Wants to love my body
Pretend not to be sad when I'm
The best you ever had
And now you're bare
And now you're bare

I've never hated myself more than yesterday
I'd never wish so hard that you'd just move away
I wish you were a candle burning on my shelf
Then I could blow you out so you had nobody else

I went to sleep and I know you're
Not lying by my side
I'm the girl with the mascara eyes
And no place left to hide
And now I'm bare
And now I'm bare

I've never hated myself more than yesterday
I'd never wish so hard that you'd just move away
I wish you were a candle burning on my shelf
Then I could blow you out so you had nobody else

And yesterday was a mistake and
Now I feel like I'm dying
And I feel like a child seeing
Shadows moving dark in the night
If I could stand myself I would
Leave and light this all on fire
But instead I'm lying naked on the
Bathroom floor, I'm crying

I've never hated myself more than yesterday
I'd never wish so hard that you'd just move away
I wish you were a candle burning on my shelf
Then I could blow you out so you had nobody else