Dead End

(album: I'M ON TO ME - 2020)

Gloomy spell
Doomed to dwell inside his grueling, broody hell
It has been a minute since we've shared the shit we've truely felt
Sometimes I'm convinced that our passion will absolutely fail
Sometimes I think our relationship's beyond pursuing help
Loosen up the knots we've tied is something I can't do myself
So, despite my better judgment
I will turn to you until we can both figure this out
Cause all that I and you have built is worth the fight
Even if it's mortifying, we'll prevail
So, I ask a question
And then I ask another question
Without allowing you to first address the aforementioned
Moving past the passive, and the half to mad aggressive
Indirectly blaming you for all miscalculations
See, I forget I'm not the only one alive
Who struggles with their mental health, and wishes just to die
The camel's back breaks, the love subsides
You open up the top kitchen drawer and grab the kni

I don't really know
Where do we go at the end of the road?
Do we go on back?
Or do we pretend that everything is fine when we know that it ain't?

Okay, right
You put my hand around the wound, say "hold it tight"
While you panic search for dressings in our medical supplies
I'm disoriented, feeling hollow as a poltergeist
I'm getting cold
My face is wet
Your face is close to mine
What just happened?
What just almost happened?
We were just a moment away from a terrible disaster
And there's no going backwards this time
No fixing what just shattered
No laughter
No happily forever after

I don't really know
Where do we go at the end of the road?
Do we go on back?
Or do we pretend that everything is fine when we know that it ain't?