I Believe It Now

(album: The Things That Got Us Here - 2020)

I couldn't see it then, but I believe it now
Just a searching soul, tired of reaching out

Stuck on the tracks, train bearing down
Screaming from my lungs, "Who will save me now?"

As the reruns of the regrets they replay inside my head
Got the devil on my shoulder and he's leaving me for dead
Whispers and lies have brought me here
Flooding my veins with doubt and fear

Oh I, I could not see it then
Oh I, I could not see

Oh my God, I remember when I cried
Shook my fists up at the sky
I wondered why
You felt so far from me
Oh God, it was in my deepest pain
That I heard You call my name
I heard You say
That You were right there with me

I couldn't see it then, but I believe it now
Trying to hold my head up when the ground fell out

I felt all alone, even in a crowd
Like a sinking stone, dragging my heart down

And the weight of the sorrows I carried on my chest
It kept pulling me under and I couldn't catch my breath
Not how I thought my life would go
Didn't know my heart could sink this low

No I, I could not see it then
No, I, I could not see it

Oh my God, I remember when I cried
Shook my fists up at the sky
I wondered why
You felt so far from me
Oh God, it was in my deepest pain
That I heard You call my name
I heard You say
That You were right there with me

Love was standing there
Holding me
But I couldn't see
That Love was always there
He carried me
And now I believe

Oh my God, I know you heard me when I cried
'Cause You were right there by my side
I realized
That You have never left me
Oh God, it was in my deepest pain
That I heard You call my name
I heard You say
That You were right there with me

I couldn't see it then (I could not see)
But, now, I believe (Now, I believe)
I couldn't see it then (I could not see)
But, now, I believe (Now, I believe)

(I could not see)
(Now, I believe) But, now, I believe
(I could not see)
(Now, I believe) Now, I believe
(I could not see)
(Now, I believe)
(I could not see)
(Now, I believe)