Can't Escape

(album: Disconnected - 2022)

Yeah, I don't wanna talk, stop reaching out
Didn't need you then, don't need you now
This fucking world's tryna beat down
I spill my heart till, I'm bleeding it out
I rap my truth, never leave it out
I overthink, when I think about
Those who did me wrong, So I write a song
Cuz you motherfuckers gotta see me now, I'm
Tired of this, I'm just tryna get inspired again
All of my demons keep piling in
Until I can't breath
They make me believe
That I'm hurt till I'm spiraling
I hate the mood that I am in
Conceal my pain, I'm hiding it
This feeling won't fade, I'm tired of it
Yo why is it, that all my feelings
Always have me stuck on the deep end
I an not sit around and pretend
Like I'm alright, when I'm in pieces
Seeing all the people I believed in
Switch up, so they force me to leave them
Now my trust issues keep increasing
While I'm tryna battle my demons, I
Wanna quit but that just isn't me
I put a decade in this
I've mastered my self belief
But one thing that I can't fix
Are the burdens my life bring
They suffocate me and it's
Dragging my soul underneath
Wish I could breathe

People aren't who they pretend to be
So I keep my distance
Cuz I'll see thru them eventually
Fake people calling people fake
That sums up the whole industry
I see them as enemies
I got real ones who stick with me, but

I'm trapped in my thoughts
I have felt so lost
Why can't I get out
Cuz I just can not escape, ooo
Cuz I just can not escape, ooo, I just

Waking up feeling empty and stuck
It's depressing it sucks, I'm not tryna give up
But I can not escape this, yeah, yeah
Yeah I can not escape this, yeah, yeah
Yeah, going to bed
With these thoughts in my head
Make me feel I'm less
Like I'm better off dead
Cuz I can not escape this, yeah yeah
Yeah I can not escape this, yeah yeah

Yeah, I'm surprise that I don't drink
Maybe that'll numb my pain
At night when I can't sleep
These thoughts scatter my brain
And make me start to think
About times that I've wasted
Chasing, people I grieved
I need a reset, hate feeling depressed
Deflect, every single issue and
Regret, reject any help you offer
I'll eject, and isolate myself
Cuz either way I swear these next
Chapters in my life, I won't let nobody in
But I know I'm a fuck that up cuz isn't it obvious
I always break my self promises, the problem is
I'll commit to everybody else before Jonathon, damn
My demons keep me cornered
They taunt me til I'm tortured
Happy sad, in that order
I may have a disorder
Carry weight on my shoulders
My heart is Growing colder, my dad is never sober
That's why I don't go over I
Sound over the top, in every record I drop
Live my life we can swap
Some say that I'm blessed
When really I'm not
I got everything but can't enjoy anything I got cuz

I'm trapped in my thoughts
I have felt so lost
Why can't I get out
Cuz I just can not escape, ooo
Cuz I just can not escape, ooo, I just

Waking up feeling empty and stuck
It's depressing it sucks, I'm not tryna give up
But I can not escape this, yeah, yeah
Yeah I can not escape this, yeah, yeah
Yeah, going to bed
With these thoughts in my head
Make me feel I'm less
Like I'm better off dead
Cuz I can not escape this, yeah yeah
Yeah I can not escape this, yeah yeah

I can't escape the pain inside my heart
No I can't escape, no I can't escape