Why Do You Leave Us? (from "Off The Board: A Studio 4 Family" compilation)

I know that I've been fleeting away
Call afraid even when I know that you won't come down on me
I see that you're hiding when I needed you to fight it
Isn't this the mess that you made?

So, where are you Jesus? Are you somewhere in the season?
And I know you didn't mean it but you strayed

And all that I ever needed was the innocence and the freedom
Not the lack of simple reason you praise

You can't call me a fake, but you know everything
Someday we'll talk about it, oh you don't hear what I say

Contemplate the time it takes to hear me out
Am I on your mind, or did you take the time to drown me out?

I'm coming to you as the calm before the storm
Even when I know that you won't shake me off
I'm forming a habit and I swear I fucking had it
And it's holding me it's hostage, a slave

Why do you leave us? Why are you always retreating?
And I know you must be feeling ashamed

Bleed out fall to the ground embrace me

You can't call me a fake, but you know everything
Someday we'll talk about it, oh, you don't hear what I say

Contemplate the time it takes to hear me out
Am I on your mind, or did you take the time to drown me out?

When you say what you mean
When you show us all your insides
When you're caught up in a dream
I will show you what it feels like