First Love (Extended Edition Bonus Track)

(album: Race Car Blues - 2020)

First loves don't leave you, the needles and pins
My phantom limb likes to cry full of gin
She's a molten mistake, lightning blue at the wake
She just hangs tight

And I meant what I said at the foothills
Won't you walk me, talk with me, give me tonight
Ancient ruins bullied by sky scraper lights
Hungry and homeless I creep into the glow of it's

Lonely, dying flame, I think I want to

Be the memory that you turn to
When you're drunk and your empty 'cause you're mine
But at the same time I want to forget you
Take a gun to the mantle
And spin myself into a storm of grey skies
I'll climb all the trees and I'll pray for a lightning strike
Tamed into numbness, it's what I have become since
The person you recognise

First loves conditioned like poisonous fate
With optimism we just contradict
Was I just your mistake, cinnamon to the taste
Bitter but graceful

You know I meant what I said in the moment
But now I'm pendulum sentiments, swaying while I cry
Destined for abattoirs, lovers only live
A penny for your thoughts, I would kill for a kiss

Lonely, dying flame, I think I want to

Be the memory that you turn to
When you're drunk and your empty 'cause you're mine
But at the same time I want to forget you
Take a gun to the mantle
And spin myself into a storm of grey skies
I'll climb all the trees and I'll pray for a lightning strike
Tamed into numbness, it's what I have become since
The person you recognise

First loves are lethal, dilute all you like
Reticent discontent laboured in stride
Hear the acid rain dripping down the water pipes to the ocean floor

And I meant what I said you're an angel
You were sent to me, carefully right at the time
That I needed a petal to throw into the fire
Something pretty and impermanent that I could admire

Lonely, dying flame, I think I want to

Be the memory that you turn to
When you're drunk and your empty 'cause you're mine
But at the same time I want to forget you
Take a gun to the mantle
And spin myself into a storm of grey skies
I'll climb all the trees and I'll pray for a lightning strike
Tamed into numbness, it's what I have become since
The person you recognise