scary part of me

(album: real growth takes time - 2020)

Said I'd be home at eight
But I'm still out smoking cigarettes and drinking
And I told them I don't care about you
But you know that that's not true, do you
I guess I'm just in a bad place
I'm doing anything I can to hurt you
But it's not what it seems
It's not what that means

I made it out but I'm broken within
Afraid that I'm not who you think I am

I fucked it up, let you down
I'm sorry for what I did
I'm a mess, try my best
You don't know what to believe
It's my fault, lost it all
That's the scary part of me
That I don't know me anymore
I don't know me anymore
That I don't know me anymore
That I don't know me anymore

And it kills me now
That I took it all for granted
For my own self worth
Just to ease the hurt that I feel inside
And I see myself
In other people that I never wanted to become
And I've come so far
And I've given scars that I'm not proud of

I fucked it up, let you down
I'm sorry for what I did
I'm a mess, try my best
You don't know what to believe
It's my fault, lost it all
That's the scary part of me
That I don't know me anymore
That I don't know me anymore
I don't know me anymore
That I don't know me anymore

I made it out but I'm broken within
Afraid that I'm not who you think I am

I fucked it up, let you down
I'm sorry for what I did
I'm a mess, try my best
You don't know what to believe
It's my fault, lost it all
That's the scary part of me
(That I don't know me anymore)
I fucked it up, let you down
I'm sorry for what I did
I'm a mess, try my best
You don't know what to believe
It's my fault, lost it all
That's the scary part of me
That I don't know me anymore