Shiva

(album: Spilligion - 2020)

I got more than 50 shades of grey
Livin in a house of blues
Takin it day by day
Livin any way I choose
You heard that I'm a rollin stone
But you never know what way I move
Eyy baby open up the window
All depends on how the wind blow

A million ways to love my nigga choose one, Or die tryin
I can admit that's intimate, I been defiant
Realizing I'm more human than Zeus cupid flyin
If I don't love my brother like I love my work
Question everything I'm on, question all my worth
My success is yours, The trajectory of adolescent black boys when you in the car
With a mask on tryna mask all insecurities impurities fact
I was a curious cat, But they killed him if black
Lives matter it feel good to be black
But you know where we at

I got more than 50 shades of grey
Livin in a house of blues
Takin it day by day
Livin any way I choose
You heard that I'm a rollin stone
But you never know what way I move
Eyy baby open up the window
All depends on how the wind blow

Now that we sittin here reminiscing
I just picked the pen up to mention
Maybe illustrate my tears on construction paper
Cut it out, put it on the fridge to save for later
Open up, I'm so cold inside from
What's happen to us
Maybe your daddy died or your hooked on drugs
Stuck in the house of blues
Can't find a way out
Don't know which route to choose
It's getting pretty hot in here
The hotbox done turned into a coffin
I'm coughin don't do that shit often
Checkin my pockets I lost it
I need me someone to talk to
I need me someone to lean on
I'm on the flo I'm a mess
I can't let this shit get to me

I don't know which route to choose
Which sight to see
Which fight to lose
What's right for me
In my fight for you
It might frighten things
It might right the blues

It ain't my fault you ain't keepin up with last place
You can't last long you livin fast paced
This a track meet not a track race
Ima do my dance on a bad day
Still got the keys to feet (vrooooom)
And maybe that's just how it goes
Ima take my broken records and turn em into gold
What I been lookin for the answer better take a look inside ya soul
It be right above ya lip my nigga everybody knows

I got more than 50 shades of grey
Livin in a house of blues
Takin it day by day
Livin any way I choose
You heard that I'm a rollin stone
But you never know what way I move
Eyy baby open up the window
All depends on how the wind blow

Look, sterilize cold water from a tap
Degradation in my neighborhood
Celebrate the current state of hate between the acres
Separated by the paper good water foods schools, to lose
Are the clues we choose
True illusions
House of balloons house of blues
House lollapalooza in the crowd aloof
Alone feel like a loser
For lack of better words a fool following fools
I'm bustin a move when the wind blow

Still tryna figure how it's supposed to be
Unfortunately, never told in me
I just float around this rock like an astronaut
Franchise player just another mascot
You amused I'm confused by your fascination
Beauty's in the eye of the beholder ain't it
Ain't a girl that I loved she was number one
These days downgraded to just acquaintance
Ultimatums and new beginnings
What you building
I just felt the breeze come through in between me and you
So I guess that I'll be on my way

I got more than 50 shades of grey
Livin in a house of blues
Takin it day by day
Livin any way I choose
You heard that I'm a rollin stone
But you never know what way I move
Eyy baby open up the window
All depends on how the wind blow