Self Destruct

(album: Get Rich Or Die Ryan - 2021)

No, no, I won't bail out, go ghost
Gotta get it 'cause we made it, aw yeah, hell yeah
Never quit and won't initiate self-destruct
You've gotta take me out

Sometimes my mind says no, body stuck on automatic
I don't wanna smoke, it got me feeling like an addict
Tryna get the picture but the station only static
I remember when my mom was hiding in the attic
Swim in my mind, let me know what y'all find
Faded gray since I thought I'd be the greatest all time
I can't dance this limbo
And they don't make meds for imposter syndrome
Got my fanbase, damn great, they're still with me
What I say got hits, Bobby, we love Whitney
When I finally got fifty, I want sixty
Paranoia, paranoia coming to get me
But despite all that or perhaps because of it
Life hit me, cracked, bounce back and bludgeoned it
Gotta snipe me out, better wipe me out
Better fireball my character, I won't pipe down

I won't bail out, go ghost
Gotta get it 'cause we made it, aw yeah, hell yeah
Never quit and won't initiate self-destruct
You've gotta take me out

As I grew up, everything got harder
Everything they said stuck to me like armor
Gross times smell like low tide in the harbor
As I got smarter, the world got darker
When I saw five, killed the child inside
The growing up made me stronger, I survived, still alive
Made it through the loop, everything
Just like Shane, used to sing
So now we tap dance devil's fingertips off my Jordans
'Cause I don't wanna smash the button and go back to nothing
Even though I've been down like I'm grabbing something
Gotta take me out, gotta break me now
You better pull me underground before I reach these clouds

I won't bail out, go ghost
Gotta get it 'cause we made it, aw yeah, hell yeah
Never quit and won't initiate self-destruct
You've gotta take me out
No, no, I won't bail out
'Cause we made it, aw yeah, hell yeah
Won't initiate self-destruct
You've gotta take me out

You've gotta take me out
You've gotta take me out