I'm Sorry

(album: N9NA - 2019)

It's so good to see family
After all of this musical insanity
Chasing dreams and deemed vanity
But I'm back to humanity
Hoping my family don't banish me
Back in orbit to be the pyoon one
I been praying this day would soon come
Man, I love this family reunion
So religious, my family might hand me communion
Sorry I left you to live in solitiude
Writing lyrics, chasing spirits, clear as no molecules
Not a ting, badda bing, I paid a lot of dues
And paid less attention to my people, thinking the dollar rules
Three decades living with tunnel vision
When I thought about my family, hoping everyone don't miss him
When I left y'all on the outside looking in
But I'm trully blessed to sit with family and see them cook again
I love you

I have to say I'm sorry
Ain't been home for so long now
I have to say I'm sorry
I been gone, but you gotta know I love you, love you, love you
Been on a never-ending party, ooh
I said I love you, love you, love you
But I have to say, I have to say I'm sorry

A big brother's supposed to be there like I'm your rock
When you want the nightmares about your mom to stop
Since I ran away when you were babies, steady tryna pop
Lost time with Kiraameen, Hakim, Hassan, and Bas
Basimah, I'm sorry I seem like a shady dude
When times are hard for your family, paying your lady dues
You come so far, having a happy family is daily news
Man, I miss you playing with me, chase me around in your baby shoes
Hakim, I should've been a better big brother
By helping you when it got rough at the house by dealing with our sick mother, yeah
Then I was chasing scrill' and dealing with others
But now that I'm better, wishing that you open to hoping we get further, yeah
Kiraameen, I left before you were born
And that's the reason we torn, and respecting me is just worn
I just wanna kick it some more
My baby brother I be missing galore
Your trust, I wanna try and kick in the door
I'm hoping we can all be fixed and be four

I have to say I'm sorry
Ain't been home for so long now
I have to say I'm sorry
I been gone, but you gotta know I love you, love you, love you
Been on a never-ending party, ooh
I said I love you, love you, love you
But I have to say, I have to say I'm sorry

Reign Michael, my youngest
I know that I been away for long, to keep it a hundred
How do you stay solid when a daddy is all you wanted?
I'm sorry for the time I didn't come get
In the future, time will be abundant
If you'll still have me as your rapping happy daddy
We'll be back to matching addies if you're having that thing gladly
I'm sorry for the distance, baby, been tardy, no persistance, lady
Been RT on a mission lately, but my daughter, I've been missing crazy
Lil' Donnie, with you, I created a better me
When I was away for so long, I missed you incredibly
I pray I didn't make you go the insane route
By being distant when we lived in the same house
I'm sorry for not helping more with your music
I know I'm half of the reason you choose it
In time, I'll really help you do it
I'm sorry for being immature and foolish
I got you, I'ma never lose it
I'ma push you while you pursue it (Alyia)
I'm sorry for missing your graduation
Telling you I would make it
Not knowing I had a show the same day, your heart, I would break it
And I couldn't face it, hurt and anger would turn to hatred
I'm sorry for everything, want a chance to bring better things
I'm so happy he got you a wedding ring
And I wanna be a part of your wedding in the Bahamas
I finally know time and honor's worth way more in life than commas
I'm sorry, baby
I'm sorry, baby
I'm sorry, baby
I'm sorry, baby

I have to say I'm sorry
Ain't been home for so long now
I have to say I'm sorry
I been gone, but you gotta know I love you, love you, love you
Been on a never-ending party, ooh
I said I love you, love you, love you
But I have to say, I have to say I'm sorry