Had To

(album: Scriptures - 2019)

They just know I ran it up, they don't know
What I been through
Night time, bro speeding, I was out the window
That's a scary sight
You gon' get buried probably
Demons talking to me while I'm shooting like hit everybody
Ain't shit to hide but I want the car tinted
I want the crib behind tall trees and fences
Have you ever had to kill one of your friend
'Cause the shit that he was on was coming between your plans?
Can't just cut him off 'cause he know too much about you
Sent a prayer up, don't worry about your kids and your momma, I got 'em
Then you gotta walk past the casket remembering
How hard he hit the wall when you blast
To remembering how sad he sounded knowing he through
Seeing shock and just disbelief in his eyes 'cause it was you
I had to
My nigga, had to
Have you ever played roles with a bitch?
And that hit went too far
You done made this bitch kids and you know that she in love
You tell her, she like "She stuck"
But you know that everything gon' change after you fuck
But you couldn't reveal your true intentions
She ain't the typa bitch that just let a nigga hit her
But fuck that, I got to
Baby girl, I got you
Let me beat it while you smile and hold you when you cry too
Anything you need, let me know, and I spot you
Hoping she don't really ask you though, 'cause it's not true
You fell victim to my lust
My bad, boo
But you so cold and so thick, bitch, I had too
Only had 250 in the bank but ice and them jewellers steady calling my name
They want 90 for the charm, 80 for the Cuban
I'm just knowing it gon' kill me but I gotta do it
Tryna make myself feel better like it's gon' motivate me
Maybe when they see me with it, they gon' know I made it
I went and got it, that shit ain't no nothing for me, jack
And it's a custom piece, so I can't get no money back

I just thought I had to
Fuck that shit, I thought I had to do
I just thought I had to
Fuck that shit, I thought I had to do