Ivy

I thought that I was dreaming
When you said you loved me
The start of something
I had no chance to prepare
I couldn't see you coming
The start of something

I'd love to hold your hand again
I want to feel the warmth between my fingers
First sign of Spring, scorching heat of Summer
Autumn through to Winter, ignore it all
Sleeping underneath the covers
I want to wake up every morning with you
I want to make love until the afternoon
I miss you more than just this picture
Hidden in my memory, tattooed
Every time I think of something real
I always start with you

(Some nights I see you with your girlfriend)
I love it when you're happy
I remember when you told me about your business
How you thought you'd have to give up
But you didn't, now it's bigger
Just like fucking magic
I miss you smiling at me, from across the room
I miss being apart of something cool
With somebody like you
I don't want to be a stranger
Really what would that do

If I could see through walls
I would see you faking
If you could see my thoughts
You would see I face it
I wish we could talk but it wont help
I don't want to be a stranger

I thought that I was dreaming
When you said you loved me
The start of something
I had no chance to prepare
I couldn't see you coming
The start of something

I could hate you now
It's quiet alright to hate me now
And we both know that deep down the feeling
Still deep down is good

Cause I'm just tryna write a love song
Still a singer with the sweet melody
You were 18 and I was 23
It was destiny, but this is my apology
I couldn't see what's right in front of me
The forest for the trees
I probably haven't been
As onto it as I coulda, shoulda, woulda
Had it from my problems with my hood up
Just know it wasn't you
I was running from my past
My reflection in the mirror
Had me sucking on a flask

And that liquor burden switched up
When we went in for that scan
Held your hand as the doctor said
We got a little man
It was growing in your stomach
Silhouette up on the screen
I want you to know I loved him
But it wasn't meant to be

Heavenly Father
Keep an eye out for my son
And my Pops, to my Mum
She don't know that you're the one
Understand I'm gonna be a better lover and a friend
Even if it doesn't last
I still love you till the end

You ain't a kid no more
We'll never be those kids again

I thought that I was dreaming
When you said you loved me
The start of something
I had no chance to prepare
I couldn't see you coming
The start of something

I could hate you now
It's quiet alright to hate me now
And we both know that deep down the feeling
Still deep down is good
I thought that I was dreaming
When you said you loved me
You say you love me