Sean

(album: Suicide And Sunshine - 2023)

We hit every red light
On the way to those you left behind
Something just don't sit right
With suicide and sunshine

Top 40 on the radio
Mind racing, but we move so slow
Familiar smell of dead friend

The moment that I got that message that you left
On the mirror by your bed came through

You apologized again
Like you did too often
And this time, it's not alright, but I forgive you

Now I'm pulling at the sides, trying to cover up the hole that you left
Telling everyone it's gonna be fine when it never is
And I'll never have the words to say what you meant, so I won't
Just one more flight, my friend, and you're gonna be home

The first thing that I thought of
When I heard that you had killed yourself
Was how stupid I'm about to look
With my foot inside of my mouth
'Cause the last thing that I said
When you were still around
Was, "You do this for attention
Or you'd have killed yourself by now"

Message that you left on the mirror by your bed came through

You apologized again
Like you did too often
And this time, it's not alright, but I forgive you

Now I'm pulling at the sides, trying to cover up the hole that you left
Telling everyone it's gonna be fine when it never is
And I'll never have the words to say what you meant, so I won't
Just one more flight, my friend, and you're gonna be home

And I keep thinking you're gonna walk up those stairs
Smiling, running your fingers through your hair
And no one here's said a lot since you did what you did
'Cause if we don't talk then you're not really dead

Now I'm pulling at the sides, trying to cover up the hole that you left
Telling everyone it's gonna be fine when it never is
And I'll never have the words to say what you meant, so I won't
Just one more flight, my friend, and you're gonna be home

And I keep thinking you're gonna walk up those stairs
Smiling, running your fingers through your hair
And no one here's said a lot since you did what you did
'Cause if we don't talk then you're not really dead