Tears On My Paycheck

(album: Burden Boy - 2018)

Yeah I see you called back
I can't even check that
Need a couple months back
I can't even cop that
Pull up then get pushed back
I can't even hate that
Tears up on my paycheck
I can't even blame that

Falling to the bottom of the things that I regret
Ignoring all my problems as they grow
I'm feeling best with drugs up in my system
Cause my man I've been depressed
I've been hanging tight for as long as I remember

Crush a pill
Break it down
Wrap a bill
Walk around
With my crown
On my face
I don't smile
Only frown
Sad boy until I die
Kinda hope it ends tonight
Tryna find a better life
My hearts been broken a couple of times
My minds still stuck in a pit that she dug
I still smoke blunts
Roll em up, and I tuck
My team give way too much of a fuck
My girl don't really care enough
Said I take my life too seriously, but I don't feel the same
That's the only way I know
I guess you think lifes just a game

Wish that I could grow some wings
Id spread them out and fly away
Picking pedals off of flowers
Lay them all across my grave
No one wants to talk about the shit that goes inside your brain
I fill mine up with contradictions
Try and smoke away the pain
I'm so obsessed with bigger pictures
Can't just settle for the life I got
That's what I've taught
That's how I brought
These lessons I've forgot
Youd think id learn
But still I make the same mistakes
I guess that's what's so comfortable
So I won't even check my phone