Hate It

(album: Nobody's Everything - 2018)

I got a little high in my head
Floating with the drunks of the sidewalk
Trying to hold onto my buzz
Running from the fool that I am
Wishing I could turn my damn mind off
But I forgot who I was

But I know that I need
And I'll say it how I feel
I know that I want real

I just don't wanna see you
With anyone but me
Now I can barely breathe
Drowning in my jealousy
And now I know I
Never been the kind to leave
My heart out on the line
It's too damn hard to fake it
And keep saying that I'm fine
I hate it
I still love you and I hate it

Gotta sleep in a bed that you made
Heard it said but it ain't that damn easy
Head spinning like a ceiling fan

Ain't no peace of mind
So I reach for a prayer
But your body still ain't there

I just don't wanna see you
With anyone but me
Now I can barely breathe
Drowning in my jealousy
I know I
Never been the kind to leave
My heart out on the line
It's too damn hard to fake it
And keep saying that I'm fine
I hate it
I still love you and I hate it

I hate the way that I didn't know
The way you loved me till I let you go

I hated 23
Wasted all on wanting me
Now I can barely breathe
Drowning in my jealousy
I know I
Never been the kind to leave
My heart out on the line
It's too damn hard to fake it
And keep saying that I'm fine
I hate it
I still love you and I hate it