I Told Myself

(album: From Chaos - 2001)

Picked up on the wrong scent
Not gonna make a dent
How many times
Are you in my rhymes
Burn me once shame on thee
But, burn me again shame on me
I'm chasing and facing
The point misplacing
When I think of you my mind's racing
I'm spacing out when I get to the point of no return
I get burned
I told myself I'm through with you
The last thing that I'll ever do
Let down my guard shouldn't be too hard
I know it's over got to elevate, disregard

I can't believe I fell for it, but did it again
I told myself I'm gonna quit, but did it again
I can't believe I fell for it, but did it again
I told myself I'm gonna quit, but

This was supposed to be the last time I told myself
This wouldn't happen again I told myself
I wasn't ever going to call you I told myself
I wouldn't let you back in, but here I am dialing, trying

I told myself to get a hold myself
I won't freak out, let you tweak out
On ecstasy, it's not next to me
Let me tell you baby girl that you're testing me
I told myself to get a hold myself
And I'm trying, I'm not lying
Don't make me mad, you know I love you bad
I want to sniff the glue that holds me to you
I told myself to get a hold myself
But don't rush me, can't you trust me
The sound I hear whenever you are near
I know it's never wrong and it's my favorite song

I can't believe I fell for it, but did it again
I told myself I'm gonna quit, but did it again
I can't believe I fell for it, but did it again
I told myself I'm gonna quit, but

This was supposed to be the last time I told myself
This wouldn't happen again I told myself
I wasn't ever going to call you I told myself
I wouldn't let you back in, but here I am dialing, trying

And now it's all turned bad
Turned bad, turned bad
Your ploy to make me jealous is obvious and sad
It has the opposite effect
Now you're left with what you had, you had

The rain comes down as love turns to dust
I was joking, she took me serious
The rain comes down as love turns to dust
No joking, she took me serious
Yes serious
This was the last time that I was ever going to call you
I told myself I wouldn't let you back in
But here I am dialing, trying