Ways I Shouldn't Be

(album: Side Effects - 2015)

It was the first day that the panic washed away
Along with the sunset, the weak ends were replaced
I put myself through a long year just to see who I became
And nothing will ever, no I'll never be the same

I built my world on a landscape to invite the masquerade
Hoping I was a subject by design to make a change
I put myself at a distance just to see if you would stay
But if no one will listen then what difference does it make?

I need a little clarity; can anybody out there hear me?
I'm searching for a place that's in between where I've been and where I want to be
I'm sick of living in this make-believe; I don't know how to shake this feeling
I can't resist the weight of gravity, I'm caught up in ways I shouldn't be

We're all just fighting for something better than a sickness we can't see
Did this life take me for granted cause I'm not sure what I need
We all want to get better – what is wrong with me?
We all want to get better – please don't lose your faith in me