In My Skin

(album: Aftermath - 2022)

I buried secrets in my skin
So caught up, I never know where to begin
I shut off, I feel the damage deep within
Scratching at the surface now I guess I gotta just pretend
To love the game, I don't even wanna play
To build a home, where I wouldn't even stay
I get the vibe, I'm not welcomed any way
I've been thinking 'bout the times I was left to fade away

I lost myself today
Digging deep to find an early grave
I force my hands in place
But the touch just never feels the same

I learned a lot
That selfishness is all I got
Fill my bag until the feeling stops
I changed a lot
The damage done, I never sought
Overlaps the feelings left untouched

I buried secrets in my skin
So caught up, I never know where to begin
I shut off, I feel the damage deep within
Scratching at the surface now I guess I gotta just pretend
To love the game, I don't even wanna play
To build a home, where I wouldn't even stay
I get the vibe, I'm not welcomed any way
I've been thinking 'bout the times I was left to fade away

I chased around the pain
Looking back I wish I could explain
To myself that's not the way be
Choking on my thoughts in good faith, running so aimlessly
I chose to stop, and find the time I always thought
Would amount to always feeling lost

I buried secrets in my skin
So caught up, I never know where to begin
I shut off, I feel the damage deep within
Scratching at the surface now I guess I gotta just pretend
To love the game, I don't even wanna play
To build a home, where I wouldn't even stay
I get the vibe, I'm not welcomed any way
I've been thinking 'bout the times I was left to fade away

Stay away
'Cause I'm not the person you want me to be
Caught up inside like you wouldn't believe
Just stay away
Gets rid of the pain, that's for you and for me
Caught up inside like you wouldn't believe

Stay away
'Cause I'm not the person you want me to be
Caught up inside like you wouldn't believe
Just stay away
Gets rid of the pain, that's for you and for me
Caught up inside like you wouldn't believe

I buried secrets in my skin
So caught up, I never know where to begin
I shut off, I feel the damage deep within
Scratching at the surface now I guess I gotta just pretend
To love the game, I don't even wanna play
To build a home, where I wouldn't even stay
I get the vibe, I'm not welcomed any way
I've been thinking 'bout the times I was left to fade away