This Goodbye

(album: Porcelain Heart - 2014)

My world caught fire
You're the one who lit the spark
Now I'm playing with matches
All alone here in the dark

I had to learn the hard way
That salvation has its price
But I'll never forgive myself
That you were the sacrifice

And I can't bring myself to say goodbye
I walk with my head up, say I'm fine but that's a lie
Your face will always haunt me
It's my comfort and my curse
And I can't imagine any feeling could be worse
Than this goodbye

Some days the guilt inside
Becomes too much to bear
I stopped seeking redemption
I don't have the will to care

I know I should be stronger
Cause I think that's what you'd want
You'd be so ashamed if you
Could see the nothing I've become

And I can't bring myself to say goodbye
I walk with my head up, say I'm fine but that's a lie
Your face will always haunt me
It's my comfort and my curse
And I can't imagine any feeling could be worse
Than this goodbye

And I'm so sorry that I couldn't save you
I gladly would have taken your place
I wanted to always protect you
But I broke every promise I made
Please don't leave me

Cause I can't bring myself to say goodbye
I walk with my head up, say I'm fine but that's a lie
Your face will always haunt me
It's my comfort and my curse
And I can't imagine any feeling could be worse
Than this goodbye

This goodbye