Each Passing Day

(album: The Weight And The Cost - 2020)

Please help me find the words because I don't have an end
I'm lost here again
What I wanted to say now doesn't make sense
And the thoughts in my head are deafening
I tried my best to pretend
I've said plenty of things I never meant
Now the inks dry in my pen
And I'm alone here once again

It's been with me ever since I was young
I stopped picking up the pieces 'cause I can't feel what I'm feeling, I am numb
When everything is right it feels wrong
Now you seem so far away when you're here right next to me

I've been awake for what seems like days
Counting, and counting, and counting in vain
Slowly retracing the look on your face
Your disappointment, my sense of shame
Time is slipping now fast
There's fleeting hope that never lasts
Staring at old photographs
There is a stranger that is staring back

It's been with me ever since I was young
I stopped picking up the pieces 'cause I can't feel what I'm feeling, I am numb
When everything is right it feels wrong
Now you seem so far away when you're here right next to me

Darkness flowing through my veins ever so slowly now
My veins ever slowly now
I wish I could change, but I don't know how

Because with each passing day I feel further away
Lost inside my head with all the things that I could never say
My heart breaks as I lie in bed wide awake
Please don't try and save me
Because with each passing day I feel further away
From the person that you think you love and I know that I'll never be
Slowly it's staring to suffocate me
(Please don't try and change me)
It's getting harder and harder and harder for me to breathe