Monster

(album: Soul Therapy - 2021)

I had a dream I was living
In a crib just like this one, same wife, different children
And it looks just like home, but feels like I'm visiting
I really can't tell if it's real or I'm tripping
As I venture into the kitchen, it's two chicks whispering
Figured they was friends with the wife as they kicking it
I see 'em both giggling, the laughs getting louder
And as I begin listening, it's clear that they dissonant
Either you drunk, pissed, or you off-piff or belligerent
And must not remember whose kitchen it is you sitting in
Don't ever disrespect my queen, you gotta get up
And hit it before I really get pissed and start flipping
And 'fore I could get rid of 'em, one of 'em said "Listen
We'll leave, but in a minute, believe us, we'll be here again
We got permission from the guy that you're living with"
(What guy?) "Your friend, upstairs with the lizard skin"

I'll save you, I'll save you
I'll save you, I'll save you
From the monster (From the monster)
I'll save you, I'll save you
I'll save you, I'll save you
From the monster (From the monster)

Uh, so I hit the stairs running fast
Gun in hand, stomping through the house looking for this man
Busting into kids' room, well, they're my kids
But they not my kids, that's the part that I don't understand
And I ain't mention anything from the kitchen
I just asked if any strangers came here to visit
They pointed at this drawing that they made
And this picture was a lady and some man with a face like a lizard
They laughing as I notice they hands hidden
Behind they back, and there was something black in it
I tell 'em to let me see, as I take a look closer
It was a voodoo doll of my wife with needles all over
And now I'm tripping, asking 'em where they get it
And what are they doing wit' it, but all they doing is grinning
They looked at me and said "Dad, quit tripping
The monster inside y'all's room gave us permission"

I'll save you, I'll save you
I'll save you, I'll save you
From the monster (From the monster)
I'll save you, I'll save you
I'll save you, I'll save you
From the monster (From the monster)

So I run up in our room, and I see this man
He's standing over my wife, and she bleeding bad
I pull a gun out to squeeze, but this thing is jammed
So I swing, but it's so slow I can't even land
I step around and I see his hand
It got my wife's heart in it, and it's beating fast
She got tears running all down the cheek
But she keeps smiling, though, you would think she ain't even mad
This dude got a hoodie on, I can't see his face
I'm just tryna figure if he a lizard or he a snake
Is it what the chick explained? Is it who the kids were saying
Giving everybody permission to cause my misses pain?
He yells something, and it sounded like "Hypocrite"
Except he ain't say it, he was hissing it
I asked him his name, he replied "Mark"
Then he looked up, and his face, it was mine

I'll save you, I'll save you
I'll save you, I'll save you
From the monster (From the monster)
I'll save you, I'll save you
I'll save you, I'll save you
From the monster (From the monster)

I wake up, and it's a chick laying next to me
But it's not my wife laying in the bed with me
Tears in my eyes, and this dream got me dying inside
'Cause now I finally realize what it was telling me
The two women in the kitchen, they were dissing
'Cause the way that I was living had given 'em that permission
And now I wanna flex with words and check for 'em
But my actions is why they was losing respect for 'em
And them kids that I didn't recognize at first
See, they really were my kids, just not with her
And the doll wit' all the needles inside of her
Represents betrayal they'd always be a reminder of
See, I was running 'round tryna be the hero
But the monster wit' her heart in his hand was me, though
I know you never let anybody hurt her, bro
But don't forget you in the position to hurt her most

I'll save you, I'll save you
I'll save you, I'll save you
From the monster (From the monster)