Disconnected

(album: Nothing Grows Here - 2019)

When you get a taste
Of the life you crave
But the bed you made
Starts feeling like a hearse
It's a fitting curse
That the dream you chase
Just leaves you feeling worse

The writing gets painful
Cause you built this from the dirt
And the songs you're playing over and over never seem to work

When you're falling short
Try to build it up
And let the feeling ride

I never held so hard onto the things that keep me grounded
'Cause I've gotten used to running away
You said this wouldn't be easy
And I didn't believe you
Now I see firsthand why I feel disconnected

With an empty room
And a 15 hour drive
We're living city to city
I'll be gone til June
While my loved ones pass me by
I always thought I was ready

Well I tried
So fucking hard
But letting go is never what it takes
To break the spell of giving in to what you think of me

The writing gets painful
When you're asking me stay
Cause the song keeps playing over and and over
Begging me

I never held so hard onto the things that keep me grounded
'Cause I've gotten used to running away
You said this wouldn't be easy
And I didn't believe you
Now I see firsthand why I feel disconnected

My heart says warm Decembers
But I'm still stuck in May
How can I be there for you when I'm here for me

I never held so hard onto the things that keep me grounded
'Cause I've gotten used to running away
You said this wouldn't be easy
And I didn't believe you
Now I see firsthand why I feel disconnected