Running

(album: Orange - 2019)

Maybe it's just my trust issues
Maybe it's the thought of being with you
Maybe it's just you
Maybe you should already be gone
Maybe I should just let you move on
But I don't want you to

So I push you away then I pull you back
Have another panic attack
I tell you I'm crazy but you say that you can handle that
And I'll start crying when you say that we shouldn't be friends
And I'll sit in your truck wishing this would never end
But we both know that soon I'll be running again
(I'm running...) I'm running again

This has been messing with my sleeping patterns
I've been throwing up in the bathroom
Get home and I'm alone I can't process what's happening
Every time I think I'm over it, these feelings come back even stronger
Think I might explode if I hold them in any longer
Coming to my window cause I left my charger in your car
Driving to the middle of nowhere nobody knows where we are
But you'd never pressure me and try to take it too far
Don't know why this is so hard
You say that I'm such a good person but I'm definitely worse than you
Cause the things you do and what you say I swear your perfect
Gotta go cause it's my curfew
I don't wanna hurt you
The more that time goes by the more I realize that I don't deserve you

So I push you away then I pull you back
Have another panic attack
I tell you I'm crazy but you say that you can handle that
And I'll start crying when you say that we shouldn't be friends
And I'll sit in your truck wishing this would never end
But we both know that soon I'll be running again
(I'm running...) I'm running again

I'll shut you out then let you in
And I'll go and talk to all your friends
Say I'm done then do it all over again
And I'll tell you things I've never said
And I'll keep on messing with your head
And I'm killing you
But somehow I'm the one that ends up dead

So I push you away and I pull you back
Break your heart right in half
You want me to be your baby
But I don't think that I can handle that
And I know I'm lying when I say that we're only just friends
But I'm a time bomb there's only one way this could end
Don't get too close
Cause soon I'll be running again

(I'm running...) I'm running again
(I'm running...)
Soon I'll be running again