Goin Thru

(album: Rudebwoy - 2020)

Statik Selektah

I ain't doing what I'm s'posed to
I ain't doing what I'm s'posed to
People said, "We want the old you"
There's so much I been going through
A battle that I won't lose
I ain't doing what I'm s'posed to
I ain't doing what I'm s'posed to
People said, "We want the old you"
There's so much I been going through
A battle that I won't lose
Fly

Ever feel Iike you can't doing nothing right?
Going insane and the frustration make you wanna fight
Was looking down at this page and thinking what to write
I'm living check to check and yet some people claim they want this life
If only you knew this what it came with
The brokest talk the most and I hate looking at my statements
We bleed the same blood and we all going through the same shit
Tryna make it this game, you're gonna need a lot of patience
Logged off the cyber world and jumped out the matrix
Had a pregnant scare when I broke through the latex
What happens when you young and you just tryna have some great sex
I done drank so much Patron, they tryna label me a patron
Wanted to be numb so I could drown out my emotion
Used it as a means of coping, all the spirits I'm evoking
Realized that was the wrong thing, then I went back to weed smoking
Had a couple sips of codeine, I was never into cocaine
Not what I'm promoting, I ain't say be a drunk
Might have tried a couple things, but I ain't say to do drugs
I was going through some shit and these just gave me a buzz
It's too late for you to judge, what can I say? I was young
Was aware of all my actions, that's cause I wasn't dumb
Certain nights, I couldn't sleep, stayed up 'til I'd see the sun
Stayed inside and hibernated if I got food and bud
Always knew I had it in me, I knew I'd be the one (One)

I ain't doing what I'm s'posed to
I ain't doing what I'm s'posed to
People said, "We want the old you"
There's so I been going through
A battle that I won't lose
I ain't doing what I'm s'posed to
I ain't doing what I'm s'posed to
People said, "We want the old you"
There's so I been going through
A battle that I won't lose

Came to the realization
I thought I had built patience, but I was playing
Still got a ways to go
At least I can say I know (What I'm in for)
Lesson learned, how else it's taken a release to let go
Had to recapture my soul, not made of wires and metal
Bon soir, hello, now go program me, ho
You gon' need that passport
I don't want the shit that took a tour
Huh, so you feel me, it's like
'Stead of second-guessing, I just think twice, oh
Everybody think that I'ma play nice, oh
But if I go ahead and do, I take

I ain't doing what I'm s'posed to
I ain't doing what I'm s'posed to
People said, "We want the old you"
There's so much I been going through
A battle that I won't lose
I ain't doing what I'm s'posed to
I ain't doing what I'm s'posed to
People said, "We want the old you"
There's so I been going through
A battle that I won't lose

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Hey, no, mmm, mmm