NUMB 2 IT ALL

(album: HEALING FROM OUR WOUNDS - 2023)

[CJ Fly:]
Fly

It's getting kind of hard for me not to take this shit personal
Behind the scenes, they put on a show until all the curtains close
I held on to the truth for so damn long and it still hurts to know
Ain't felt this kind of hurt before, need green just like an herbivore
Think it's time I turned a new leaf
I need my money quarterly, vegan, I don't want no beef
Starving, I just wanna eat
Don't say we family if you doing me foul
You must think that life's a game because you threw in the towel
Doing fraud using my name, now, what you do to your child?
That's why I couldn't come to court to watch, you drew in your trail
My trust is broken, you confusing me now
I care for you, let me down
Gave me your bedroom, still was using the couch
Like bad cell service, some connections always sever
Notice since we went our separate ways that I've been doing better
Still wishing you the best of luck through all of your endeavors
I was never good at following, was always a trendsetter
Couldn't call myself fly, you'd not seen me boast
Stay remote, but still could push a button, so don't play me close
Some people dead to me, you see 'em, ask why they been ghost
Staying off the internet, some days, you might not see me post
Never been in my shoes, y'all don't know what it feels like
I don't say a word when I be going through real life
I cut some people off like I took a saw to a steel pipe
I keep my circle smaller these days, I'm talking 'bout airtight
Even when we down bad, I know deep down we gon' be alright
In my darkest moments, I knew one day that I'd see the light
Only goal right now is me teaching my son to read and write
Like my carbon copy, to me it's crazy how we alike

[Millyz:]
Yeah, and it's crazy how me and C unite (It's crazy, ain't it?)
Leave my legacy on Earth before I leave this life (Blanco)
Holy water on me, I'm like Jesus Christ
Divine intervention, I played the reaper and I beat him twice
I need my money quarterly, drug dealer formally
I used to quote a quarter ki', but now it's flights to Normandy
Paris while it mattered, in this bag is where the forty be
Disruptor, I'm disorderly and on top is where I ought to be
Yeah, fuck what they thought of me, God is in every part of me
And pardon me, but this ain't hard for me, hawking your arteries
I'm a stand-up guy first, respect me second for my artistry
Yeah, respect me second for my artistry
I linked with CJ fly soon as I moved to NY
He blessed me with that feature, I was just tryna get by
Ramen noodles in the Bronx, that was like middle July
And six years later, my shit lit, thinking about it, could cry (Shed a tear)
Uh, yeah, you know life is 'bout the moments
I DND my phone and sit back and I get to zoning
Industry is full of sucker shit that I could never condone in
Bro'll have you seeing red, he shoot shit like a rōnin
Woah

[CJ Fly:]
Was sleeping on our floors like they was homeless
Up on them late nights like my name was Conan
Dropped out, ain't get my diploma
The marijuana smoke was my aroma
Was fighting demons like the kid in Omen
Knocked 'em down like I was bowling
Might strike you out like I hit every pin
I fuck with Millyz 'cause he never switched
Collabed and been cool ever since
Six years ago, it made reminisce
We went from being local menaces and dodging all those sentences

Left the street life, still be ducking the law
Shit get sticky, can't get stuck with a charge, you can't get stuck with a charge
Ain't been feeling it, I'm numb to it all
Ain't been feeling it, I'm numb to it all, I swear I'm numb to it all
When it's problems, we the ones that they call
I'm too loyal, think it's one of my flaws, I think it's one of my flaws
I ain't feeling it, I'm numb to it all
Ain't been feeling it, I'm numb to it all, I swear I'm numb to it all
Left the street life, still be ducking the law
Shit get sticky, can't get stuck with a charge, you can't get stuck with a charge
Ain't been feeling it, I'm numb to it all
Ain't been feeling it, I'm numb to it all, I swear I'm numb to it all

Numb to it all
Ain't been feeling it, I'm numb to it all, I swear I'm numb to it—