Bloom

(album: Idealism - 2020)

Whoa, I think I faced that fear
Wondering how it could ever get that weird
I need peace and a head so clear
Stalking my shadow will not erase my tears
Watching YouTube to distract from my old view
Running from my past even though it's half the debut
I can't avoid it, so I do it 'cause I have to
Deep in depression, but I know that I can pull through

Fuck the new maze
My mind won't obey
Need a way day-to-day
To cut away that inner pain
I know one thing to try
But I can't rely on it (On it)

Come and bust it down for a real one
I'll get you back home
You know I'm the man with the plan
When I tease those hormones
I know that the game is won when I get you to moan
And then when you leave you'll be pleased that you hit up, that you hit up my phone
Come and bust it down for a real one
I'll get you back home
You know I'm the man with the plan
When I tease those hormones
I know that the game is won when I get you to moan
And then when you leave you'll be pleased that you hit up, that you hit up my phone

I wish I could tell my friends
Why it's been a fucking year since I've had music to send
I need time to perfect this piece
It doesn't help, what I've been dealt
This means the world to me
I've had so much I've been hauling y'all
Can't do much when I'm falling tall
But I'm doing better so I bet I'll be a better me
Still under pressure but the weight don't weigh as heavily

Fuck the new maze
My mind won't obey
Need a way day-to-day
To cut away that inner pain
I know one thing to try
But I can't rely on it (On it)

Come and bust it down for a real one
I'll get you back home
You know I'm the man with the plan
When I tease those hormones
I know that the game is won when I get you to moan
And then when you leave you'll be pleased that you hit up, that you hit up my phone
Come and bust it down for a real one
I'll get you back home
You know I'm the man with the plan
When I tease those hormones
I know that the game is won when I get you to moan
And then when you leave you'll be pleased that you hit up, that you hit up my phone

I won't feel this way forever
(I know that you will. I'll make sure you will)
Mindful that my mind's so clever
(Oh no, he's got the pill)
If I'm to destroy or sever
(This is not a drill, this is not a drill)
I must face the fear possessor
(Lay low, he's come to kill)