Fever Dream

(album: Idealism - 2020)

Maybe I could just stop
Drilling it into my head
So I can catch my breath again
Lately I've been so lost
Watching time pass from my bed
Through eyes I'd fix at any cost

I thought it'd be over by now, but I've been relapsing again
I'm still trying to figure out my new skin
There's so much to comprehend
Still time and again

All these fever dreams wear down my mind
When I wake up traumatized
They're all waiting for songs from you
(This is not your demise)
All of my anxieties aligned
It'll take a little time
To break out of the mental zoo
(Don't fear dead butterflies)

Hazy electroshock
Keeping myself underfed
It's all my fault I feel this way
Pacing through a head shop
Buying alternative meds
So I feel like myself again

I thought it'd be over by now, but I've been relapsing again
I'm still trying to figure out my new skin
There's so much to comprehend
Still time and again

All these fever dreams wear down my mind
When I wake up traumatized
They're all waiting for songs from you
(This is not your demise)
All of my anxieties aligned
It'll take a little time
To break out of the mental zoo
(Don't fear dead butterflies)

I know you want me back
So I'll help you find a way
This ain't how it's gotta be
Don't you go back to black
This is how it's gotta stay
Take it all just day by day
Fight through all your setbacks
They can make or break your brain
Just don't harbor all the pain
I had my soul attacked
Turned down thoughts of suicide
Cause I just want to live my life again