Still Won't Be The Same

(album: Infectious Culture - 2009)

Lost, when I'm in this maze
Often, I'm up in this phase
Remembering quality moments that'll fit the page
Of this chapter in my life that I'm closing
What the fuck is coming over me
The price that I'm rolling with
Is cause of you
And all your selfish insecurities
But why do I keep coming right back to you
And its killing me
My family says that I need to catch a break
But I rather break my heart over seeing you face to face
Every single memory we made
You could forget em'
I'mma treasure them forever
First love
In the warmness of the soul
Temporarily, becoming one with you and all
It's sad as fuck that it had to come to this predicament
Living like a God damn idiot
But I'm sick of it
And all the while
Your just trying to live in times
As I loved you with a broken heart
Pieces is all I can find

Cause everytime I think I'm over you
It's killing me within that
I will never be with you again
And I don't know how I can stomache it
How I'm not running away
But I keep on fighting, keep on surviving
Even though, I know
It still won't be the same

[?] with my life, the second that you left me
The mothafucking pain settled in and left me empty
So don't tempt that I'm going over the edge
I'm past love stories
I'll blow this over again
Shit, and there I go
Lying as if I'm not broken
Looking for clarity
As if I'll never stop poping
The pot smoking has got me deep in thought racing
Why is it me that's always thrown into the complication
I try to cope
Lately, I'm on the verge
I'm following these suicidal thoughts
And its absurd
A year ago the day we broke up
It's official missing you
How fucking pitiful, damn it
I couldn't diss at you
It's like, a part of me
Wants to be so pissed at you
The other part, wants to be loving you and kissing you
But nevermind, I'mma be a celebrity
I'm fine, fuck you and your half-hearted memories

Cause everytime I think I'm over you
It's killing me withing that
I will never be with you again
And I don't know how I can stomache it
How I'm not running away
But I keep on fighting, keep on surviving
Even though, I know
It still won't be the same

So it's like, fuck me right?
The hell with me
Why do I matter anyway, right?
It's all good
It always was all about you, huh?
Always
But I ain't gon' keep running back to you
Nah

Cause everytime I think I'm over you
It's killing me withing that
I will never be with you again
And I don't know how I can stomache it
How I'm not running away
But I keep on fighting, keep on surviving
Even though, I know
It still won't be the same