Back On Deck

(album: Jackpot Juicer - 2022)

She whispers sweet bullshit in my ear
Familiar
It's what I always want to hear

But it didn't take long for my old regrets to be back on deck
Cover up my attention
Fat chance that I'll pay my debt with my mistakes

Give me a break
Is there even anybody left for me to trust for god damn sake?
Cauterize the hole inside my chest and burn my flesh
The smell of honesty, decency, lingers in the air until it's gone

I'm not the one
I'm not the one who's holding on
I'm not the one who's holding on
Our agony is a distant memory

September, can't wait 'til you're here
Deliver all my deepest fears

And no, it didn't take long for my old regrets to be back on deck
Cover up my attention
No chance that I'll pay my debt with my mistakes

Give me a break
Is there even anybody left for me to trust for god damn sake?
Cauterize the hole inside my chest and burn my flesh
The smell of honesty, decency, lingers in the air until it's gone

I'm not the one
I'm not the one who's holding on
I'm not the one who's holding on
Our agony is a distant memory

You get bored with an easy life
Looking for anything to make it right
You're stupid, guy

There's no magic in maintenance, feel it getting stale?
Then go play games in the basement, spacious
Some people ain't worth a single tear
More hate, more fear

I think we're better off weird

Tapping into all the emotions I forgot to feel all year
Can't recall the smell of the ocean, I need something real
Something real

Tapping into all the emotions, I need something real
Can't recall the smell of the ocean (Something real)
Tapping into all the emotions, I need something real
Can't recall the smell of the ocean (Something real)