Euphoric Equation

(album: Homosexual - 2022)

In the beginning there was darkness
There was no mercy it was heartless
Sometimes to survive this life you gotta learn to run
Stay ahead of the night
Some days when the fire inside dies
You gotta find your mark
Cheat the light
Banish darkness

I was a kid
I was petrified
I couldn't look in my daddy's eyes
I'd count em down
Every drink he took
And when the bad guy arrived
I would just hide
I was a man
Twenty three years old
The first time I ever told a soul
About the violence inside my home
I didn't even cry
It's how I survived

I never meant to complicate things
I never meant to disappear in my mind
I never meant to swallow my heart
But darkness travels faster than the speed of love
I tried to run but I couldn't escape it
Sadness fills the void where joy is vacant
Got to chase the light
Gotta do what you can to survive
To survive
I survived
I survived
I survived

Ooh hoo yeah
Ooh hoo yeah
Ooh hoo yeah

I was a child
I was cursed and damned
Called me a name I didn't understand
Made me ashamed of who I am
So I killed that side
A part of me died

I met a man via pseudonym
Said my bravado wasn't fooling him
He saw a fracture in my Kingdom wall
He said strength be damned
Let it fall

I never meant to complicate things
I never meant to disappear in my mind
I never meant to swallow my heart
But darkness travels faster than the speed of love

I tried to run but I couldn't escape it
Sadness fills the void where joy is vacant
Got to chase the light
Gotta do what you can to survive
To survive
I survived
I survived
I survived

Ooh hoo yeah
Ooh hoo yeah
Ooh hoo yeah

Darkness and light are joy adjacent
Both cannot exist in the same equation
Shadows are bigger than the fools who make them
Darkness travels faster than the speed of love

You can try to run but you can't escape it
Sadness fills the void where joy is vacant
Open up your heart to instantaneous light
To light
To light
To light
To light

Oh hoo
Oh hoo
Oh hoo
Oh hoo