You Don't Know

(album: Euphoria - 2012)

(What up Mac Miller. Shut up, hate when they do that. Allday)

And they used to call me ugly
Now it seems funny
Looking back now I never would have thought I'd get this far
And they used to call me chubby
Guess I got lucky
So unless you were around all the way back then at the start
Shut the fuck up you don't know

Did you know me as a fat lonely kid and
My only way to smile was a black Sony Discman
School grades low I'm in the hallways always
Tagging things taking out my agonies in the wrong ways
You don't know my pain
I don't know your pain
You weren't there before the main meal for the entrée
On the bus nervous and I'm huddled with my bag
And the older kids tell me that I'm ugly and I'm fat
And everyday I go to school I was fucking up so bad
Everybody wants to father me except my fucking dad
And I don't even mind because my life is really nice
But don't act like you know me if you've only seen me twice
Coz the same ones calling me names once
Wanna take photos and have conversations
That is just life and were smiling for the cameras
Until we get old and they no longer flatter us

And they used to call me ugly
Now it seems funny
Looking back now I never would have thought I'd get this far
And they used to call me chubby
Guess I got lucky
So unless you were around all the way back then at the start
Shut the fuck up you don't know

Did you know I that I prefer to be alone
But I never am because I'm petrified of silence
And did you know that I'm eternally alone
Coz my body can never be the same place my mind is
And I can't take a breath cause I'm just so anxious
And I can't stop drinking I mean just to manage
Everybody's talking shit and I can't understand it
Kinda like they speak another language
That I don't know and I laugh along with their jokes
But I'm not even listening I'm just off on my own
I throw parties full of strangers to feel worry free
But I don't wanna see them all I just wanna sleep
So I sit out on the lawn of the house across the street
And only go inside once everybody leaves
And the clocks ticking louder I only notice now
Coz without all the people its like time is slowing down
It's like time is slowing down
It's like time is slowing down
It's like time is slowing down

And they used to call me ugly
Now it seems funny
Looking back now I never would have thought I'd get this far (Look how far I came)
And they used to call me chubby
Guess I got lucky
So unless you were around all the way back then at the start
Shut the fuck up you don't know