To Carry My Grief Through Torpor And Silence

(album: DAMNUM - 2022)

The weight that looms above me fills this arid chasm to the brim
A dread that overwhelms me designs the lines wherein shapes
Of distant, strange and often wasted memories
That bear no meaning steal my presence of mind

Through the trees and this tangle of weeds that is leading me deeper
Desperately into a dream where the reaches of fever and sickness of mind can't find me
I come to my feet and careening, screaming into the empty
Looking for something, for anything other than me to carry my grief

My tongue is laced with blades of ire
To scrape away this taste
Left by tears and rain and ashes and waste
The faceless coward within me glowers
Taking and giving out misery

Through the trees and this tangle of weeds that is leading me deeper
Desperately into a dream where the reaches of fever and sickness of mind can't find me
I come to my feet and careening, screaming into the empty
Looking for something, for anything other than me to carry my grief away
My endless grief

Save me someone please
I cannot bear to carry any of this pain anymore
My aching body screams, fading and wasting away
Save me someone please

My tongue is laced with blades of ire
Condemning me to my descent

Through the trees and this tangle of weeds that is leading me deeper
Desperately into a dream where the reaches of fever and sickness of mind can't find me
I come to my feet and careening, screaming into the empty
Looking for something, for anything other than me to carry my grief away

Nothing on the wayside left to waste
Eating all of my fears in empty days, away

Take me further from safety for everyone
Take me further away
Left to waste