Time Of My Life

(album: Handle With Care - 2019)

I'm having the time of my life right now
I don't even care if I die right now
Smile on my face but I could cry right now
Why is suicide on my mind right now

And I miss taking drugs, I'm not gonna lie
I miss missing calls and spending my whole day inside
Nothing's ever changed except that I can feel
All the pain I hold and I'm not strong enough to deal
I hide myself behind Chanel
Even I can tell that I'm not well
Months gone by, ain't checked the mail
Mom tried to call and check my health
RIP to Mac, I think I know how you felt
I need to be careful, hope I learn it myself

I'm caught in a vibe tonight
I could use my way out of my life tonight
Pour me up a four, make me feel alright
I just wanna vibe and vibe and vibe tonight

I'm having the time of my life right now
I don't even care if I die right now
Smile on my face but I could cry right now
Why is suicide on my mind right now?

Yeah, ran up a tab, I got the bag
I'm driving fast, never look back
Fuck all the past, I want the check
Tonight I might die but I'm still smiling back
I got the pack, look to the sky
See all the money, drop tears in they eyes
Thought of your face gon' make me cry
See every word and I see all my life
I see the signs, I'm on the path
But I still feel like it's literal mines
Always say sorry a couple of times
Always apologize over a rhyme
Always acknowledge that I'm doing fine
I wish you could see that I feel like I'm dying
Sorry if you think that I wasted your time
Sorry if you think that I wasted your time

I'm caught in a vibe tonight
I could use my way out of my life tonight
Pour me up a four, make me feel alright
I just wanna vibe and vibe and vibe tonight

I'm having the time of my life right now
I don't even care if I die right now
Smile on my face but I could cry right now
Why is suicide on my mind right now?
Why is suicide on my mind right now

I'm having the time of my life right now
Why is suicide on my mind right now?