Never Enough

(album: The De2our - 2020)

I swear that this ain't as bad as it looks
I got an expectation from the books
I read and find myself getting depressed when I don't feel the same
A couple names still carved into the memory
Afraid to text... I made a mess
That's so dissemble of me
Right?
Since I was fifteen I hated this feeling that I get around people when I'm in public places
Like, it must be nice to be so fucking confident
As soon as I get to know me then Imma be on top of shit
Yeah I've been
So lost I'm in
Another world inside of my head "Safe Flyin'!"
It's hard to love when they don't love you back
And it's even harder when you understand the thing they don't love is an act
But it makes it easier to deal with like, okay, I know
But that's the reason why I put a front up with no one to show
The real me
Cause what if I put myself on front street
And really show my heart and then get run down by a humvee?
A lovely way to go while you just hold my hand
I've never felt this cool let me soak in it for just a second
Ay, these daydreams where I go
Cause you'll never be the same after your heart is broke

Yeah, and I'm getting older isolation got me worrisome
It's just my fucking head I never meant to hurt no one
I do my best to try to be an open book
But know that if the cover sucks no one will ever actually read, so look...
It's probably more depressing from an outside perspective
And everyone's so judgy when they don't know what you've lived with
Maybe we'd be happier if everyone could muster up the courage long enough to shut the fuck up for a minute
Yeah, see I'm just rolling with the changes
Dreams turn to wages
Mixtapes to playlists
And I don't wanna move on
Afraid to fail and lately
I'm sick of watching all the people that I love go crazy
And so I'm off again
Strapping into a rocket
And taking off in my room
I don't know where I might be stopping at
Cause all the friends I used to have are popping pills just tryna cope
But the higher you get
The harder it is when you're low
And the harder low gets
The more you have to take, right?
And the more you have to take
The less you feel escape, right?
And the less you feel escape
The more you numb the pain, right?
You take 'em all on that late night
And that's a shitty way to go, but I will hold your hand
I've never felt this lost
Will you please stay another second?
Yeah, see these daydreams are where I go
Cause you will never be the same after your friends overdose