Look Out Below

(album: The D4tour - 2023)

And I've been waiting for a moment with something I can say
To tell you I've been lying, I'm really not okay
And I will just keep falling, wait until I hit
And then I'm asking how'd I wind up in this place again?
So I take another pill then I zone out, tone down all the shit in my head but that voice gets so loud
That I can't think, and I just wanna run, like I'm never coming back and I really wanna love
But I feel so anxious everyday, wake up, can't go back to sleep
Lay in my bed then turn on my phone and look at these people who better than me
I can start feeling the old insecurities tighten the grip in my chest
They keep on saying that time makes it better, then why do I constantly feel like I'm less?
Don't wanna speak up I feel like the only one having these problems of all of my friends
Is it anxiety built up inside of me, or am I dying? Is this how it ends?

Or maybe that's how real life is, I don't wanna feel like this
All this shit I'm dealing with more heavy than I realize
And I'm slowing down, down, down, yeah
And I be falling down, down, baby

Yeah, it's a long way down, look out below
I got some voices in my head that wanna see me die
They waiting for an opportunity to pull me down
They're never stopping until I fall, look out below
Now tell me, what do I do
When I got all these vices that I'm tied to?
Waiting for an opportunity to pull me down
And they ain't stopping till they see me fall, oh shit, look out below

It's another day that I'm tryna float but I'm treading water and I'm feeling weak
Looking round for someone to help but there's no one there and I'm starting to sink
Fantasize what it might be like to just stop the fight and then drift away
And I will sit alone and let the thought replay
When the whole life feels just like a train wreck, wanna look away but I just stay with
Tryna get ahead but I just can't win, and I fall apart but I don't say shit
Take your pick, what's your fix today? The drugs? The girls? Perfection?
Once you get a grip on that, you'll switch addictions to attention
When those people turn on you, you go running back for affection
From the friends you left behind but you can't reestablish that connection, yeah
Sick of everybody telling me to learn to let go
I can barely hold on the edge, I can never get a grip if I let it go again, I ain't never coming back
I been trying to adapt, but it's really getting old, when it never really helps 'cause I know when I'm alone
Those thought will speak up and I'm afraid of the day when I let them win, yeah

Or maybe that's how real life is, I don't wanna feel like this
All this shit I'm dealing with more heavy than I realize
And I'm slowing down, down, down, yeah
And I be falling down, down, baby

Yeah, it's a long way down, look out below
I got some voices in my head that wanna see me die
They waiting for an opportunity to pull me down
They're never stopping until I fall, look out below
Now tell me, what do I do
When I got all these vices that I'm tied to?
Waiting for an opportunity to pull me down
And they ain't stopping till they see me fall, oh shit, look out below