Save Yourself

(album: The D4tour - 2023)

And I know you think you know me, but you don't know where I've been
I'm a mess, what's happiness when you just fuck it up again?
I might lose my way
I might not come back
I know you try to stay to help
But go and save yourself

This ain't a way to be living I get it
Didn't know bad it was until you actually said it
Breaking down but telling everyone I'm fine
I know I promised I would talk before I crossed that line again but didn't
I guess that's just the way my head works
Open up another couple scars before you mend yours
I don't learn from watching others crash I gotta wreck first
Cuz I don't think that love is really love until you get hurt, yea
And I know what you think
Said its hard to love me when I don't love myself and I'm on the brink
Of trading in this sobriety for a fuck drink
And I don't wanna talk about it till we're bout to to sink, yea
Maybe I just need a day off
Maybe I'm just more fuck comfortable in the chaos
You say you love me so you stay on
Invested all your time and wonder when it's gonna payoff, huh?

I know you think you know me, but you don't know where I've been
I'm a mess, what's happiness when you just fuck it up again?
I might lose my way
I might not come back
I know you try to stay to help
But go and save yourself

So afraid of the failure that now I'm barely living
Spent a lifetime of working with nothing left to give it
Looking back at the things we been through and feel I miss it
I been running forever I don't know how you didn't
When you're sitting right next to me, don't know where I go
I'm in my head with these songs and pick apart every note
These insecurities killing me but I never show
The things I'm thinking are probably worse than you'll ever know, yea
We been feeling like we can't move
Same house, same walls, but a different view
Spending time avoiding this inconvenient truth
I got some problems and I'm sick of trying to blame you
Cuz I feel
Like I been
On my own
In my head
The light goes
And I see
You fall when standing beside me

And every night I lie awake, trying to fight but everyday I'm feeling less
Feeling less like me...

Yea
Still waiting for me to open up
She ain't cheating, just fantasizing bout who I was
Fell in love with this image that I portray but know it ain't a lie
Its who I want to be at the end of the day
I know the feelings and the thoughts will keep me down
Depression and anxiety, hanging inside the clouds
No matter where I go they keep following me around
And you think that one day I can make it out

I know you think you know me, but you don't know where I've been
I'm a mess, what's happiness when you just fuck it up again?
I might lose my way
I might not come back
I know you try to stay to help
But go and save yourself...

Go and save yourself