Patience

(album: I Came Home Late - 2023)

Confess, please, 'cause I did nothing wrong
I paid with my past and completed the task, and then made it a habit
I need new beats
'Cause I hear the same songs
I was ready to cash in on all of the sadness back when it was happening

'Cause now the time gone seems so silly
What will it take you to forgive me?
I feel weighted down
And I'm in a state of sorrow
You just hold on until tomorrow
If I ever figure it out, it out, it out

I'll still be patient
What you know about patience?
It doesn't mean waiting
Wait, did somebody say that?
Those two things ain't the same, yeah

I'm so ready, but did I do something wrong?
'Cause I still feel the shadows when I'm made to dazzle
Will they see how much I've grown?
No, 'cause I never wanted someone to save me through those deep waters I waded
How could I be doubtful when I spent all these hours
On all that I now know?

But still, the time gone seems so silly
What will it take to forgive me?
I feel weighted down
And I'm in a state of sorrow
I just hold until tomorrow
I was supposed to figure this out, will they bless me now?

The more that you forgive me
The less that I will take
Lord, if You get in this house
You'd kill me for my sakes, and I
I'm not sick of trying, but will it ever end?
Thought I'd feel so much better if I never felt again

The torment don't stop
And it gets worse as you reach the top
So you keep on moving like "I better not"
And like this work ain't something to be proud of
But you know me, I always beg to differ
'Cause your right path won't ever miss you
You weren't supposed to figure this out, do you get it now?

But I know the time gone still seems so silly
What will it take you to forgive me?
I feel so weighted down, down
And I was in a state of sorrow
A little self-compassion led you to tomorrow
Guess you're wondering what this is all about, please don't turn me down
Thank God for patience

I'll try on this patience
No, it doesn't mean waiting
Wait, did somebody say that?
Those two things ain't never been the same