dinner party

(album: dummy parade - 2016)

I'm sorry if I'm not that good today
I'm sorry if I've overgrown teen angst
I'm sorry if I didn't do this right
I'm sorry that I stayed inside

But I just want to go to sleep and stay there for a while
I want to be the kind of dead that seems to be in style
I'll have over some company
At the dinner party
And laugh about the situation hard when I'm fifty
I don't want anything at all

I tried to fix my posture up again
I had to force the texts I sent
I've got a pounding headache on the sidewalk
It's two days strong and I can't talk

But I just want to go to sleep and stay there for a while
I want to be the kind of dead that seems to be in style
I'll have over some company
At the dinner party
And laugh about the situation hard when I'm fifty
I don't want anything at all

I'm all alone for hours in laptop places
Or at the shops passing faces
I tried to tell myself I was productive
But now it's getting self-destructive

I'll write an awful song to hit record
And make it better when I'm bored
I know that in a few weeks I'll be okay
A toss up for the next few days

But I just want to go to sleep and stay there for a while
I want to be the kind of dead that seems to be in style
I'll have over some company
At the dinner party
And laugh about the situation hard when I'm fifty
I don't want anything at all