Doormat

(album: Clash Of The Substance - 2023)

You're the reason I'm keeping secrets from my parents again
And why I'm lying through my teeth cause they just care so much when
Their little girl is crying and there's nothing they can do
But they say maybe one day we'll be together and it will all be okay

But a break up isn't a break up because a break sounds so neat and clean
And it's not simple and god I feel so little I'm tired of fatiguing in my fever dreams

You don't want me to get the wrong idea but you're the one who's touching my back
You say you don't want to keep leading me on but you're the one that's asking me back
To your house but what happened to our house
And honey I'm still paying rent
And you can try and sugar coat the fact but the truth is I'm your doormat

You had a party at our house and yeah of cause it made me so sad
I had no invite, you didn't invite me
And I wouldn't come without one but you knew that
So of course I was crying cause that's my home and all of my friends were there as well
But they know nothing cause I'm keeping all this shit to myself
And I don't wanna see you after you have kissed someone else

But a break up this really is a break up because I feel so broken and unclean
And it's not simple fuck I feel so little I'm tired of fatiguing in my fever dream

You don't want me to get the wrong idea but you're the one who's touching my back
You say you don't want to keep leading me on but you're the one who's asking me back
To your house but would've been to our house
And honey I'm still paying the rent
You can try and sugarcoat the fact but the truth is I'm your doormat

Of course I'm crying
You make me feel so uninvited
And of course I'm tired
Thinking what I deserve should I act more reserved
And of course I'm crying
Build a house knock it down turn it into a ghost town
And of course I'm lying
When I say I'm doing just fine really I'm loosing my mind

(Of course I'm crying)
Cause you're the one who's touching my back
(Of course I'm crying)
And you're the one who's asking me back
(Of course I'm crying)
And honey I'm still paying rent
(Of course I'm crying)
When I say that maybe we can stay friends but no way

Of course I'm crying
Cause you're the one who's touching my back
Of course I'm crying
Cause you're the one who's asking me back
Of course I'm crying
Cause honey I'm still paying rent
You can try and sugarcoat the fact but the truth is I'm your doormat