What Gives

(album: Dying Lately - 2021)

I don't wanna die (I don't wanna die)
I don't wanna try (I don't wanna try)

I don't wanna die, I don't really wanna live
I don't wanna try, nothing works, what gives?
I been moving fast, see the end of my road
Wait, I take it back, cut the end of my rope
I don't really sleep, so I'm feeling like shit
Seven days a week, that's the life I live
But it's all good, I come alive in the night
Gunning toward the edge, tell me jump, I just might

I know I got a lot to say
I really miss the way things used to be
Can everything go away?
I really hate the way I hate me
I feel like I'm wasting my breath
I been heading for the depths with the secret I've kept
Got a bag in the back and it's full of dead dreams
Put a tack on the map, Hell is all that I see now
I put on a mask just to hide my face
Don't want anyone to see me in this empty state
My life has went down, my stress has gone up
My hope is burned out, I need some good luck

I don't wanna die, I don't really wanna live
I don't wanna try, nothing works, what gives?
I been moving fast, see the end of my road
Wait, I take it back, cut the end of my rope
I don't really sleep, so I'm feeling like shit
Seven days a week, that's the life I live
But it's all good, I come alive in the night
Gunning toward the edge, tell me jump, I just might

And I don't mean to let you down
I really miss the way I used to be
I wish it could be over now, I really hate the way life made me
Never found the light, I'm at the end of the tunnel
I've been going way too long, the waves are pulling me under
I probably sound a little weak, but that's okay 'cause I am
I'm not afraid to cry 'cause that's apart of being a man, damn
I dug myself a grave and laid down in the bottom of it
Seems like it's only me, myself and I, but I'm just fine
Don't hold your head too low
You're better than the dirt you walk on
That's what I tell myself so I'll keep hanging on this time

You don't wanna see me like this
I'm a mess and I can't hide it
Try to lie, but I can't fight it
Can't fight this

I want you to know that I really do care
Even if it seems like I'm never really there
Yeah, I got some things, gotta work on myself
It's hard to be me when I'm going through hell
People try to tell me everything is okay
But they don't know the story, they don't me anyway
I just keep it moving even though I'm weighed down
I just keep on losing, see you on the way down

I don't wanna die, I don't really wanna live
I don't wanna try, nothing works, what gives?
I been moving fast, see the end of my road
Wait, I take it back, cut the end of my rope
I don't wanna sleep, so I'm feeling like shit
Seven days a week, that's the life I live
But it's all good, I come alive in the night
Gunning toward the edge, tell me jump, I just might