The List

Oh I, have a hobby of picking myself apart
Leaving people I love waiting in the dark
And sometimes when I want to cry, I laugh
It's kind of funny
Oh and, this October I went falling off the edge
All of London must have heard the things I said
Put your hand up if I let you down again

There's a list of things that I should stop
List of things that I should stop
List of things that I should not be doing but I do 'em
It's a pattern that I've got

I need to stop my excuses and have a real conversation
Need to look in the mirror, stop finding things that need changing
Need to stop getting drunk, to avoid this situation
I need to stop, letting myself down

And I'll try something that I've not before
And like myself a little more now

Oh I, I've got an attic full of damage in my mind
And I box it up, say I'll deal with it another night
And I have a problem looking people in the eye
Oh, isn't that funny?

There's a list of things that I should stop
List of things that I should stop
List of things that I should not be doing but I do 'em
It's a pattern that I've got

I need to stop my excuses and have a real conversation
Need to look in the mirror, stop finding things that need changing
Need to stop getting drunk to avoid this situation
I need to stop, letting myself down

And I should shut up and listen, not trying fill every silence
I should stumble in love, instead of running and hiding
I should stop getting drunk and showing up uninvited
I need to stop, letting myself down

And I'll try something that I've not before

Oh I'm a master at dancing around the point
And I know I call you, but I hate the sound of my own voice
So can you talk? You know I'm stacking up
Until the night I'm not enough
And you're just someone else I disappoint

I need to stop my excuses and put my feelings in order
Need to look in the mirror and stand a little bit taller
Need to stop getting drunk, as a reason to call you
I need to stop, letting myself down

Oh, I should shut up and listen, not trying fill every silence
I should stumble in love instead of running and hiding
And I should stop getting drunk and showing up uninvited
I need to stop letting myself down

And I'll try something that I've not before
And like myself a little more now