Afraid of Me

(album: Self Medicated - 2020)

I take a moment just to breathe when I'm feeling that stress
With the sins on my sleeve, with what heart I have left
'Til I take my last breath, I will battle with the flesh
I picked the side for which I ride, there ain't no straddle in the fizz (Lord, please)
I feel the time passing by
I can feel the crash coming, I been on a manic high
Reminisce to cooking packs, changed my life, no looking back
The only man I fear is the reflection I'm looking at
Only time I'm ever happy is when I'm keeping a buzz
I feel a wall around myself and the people I love
Lord, protect me from the storm, I feel the thunder again
I done prayed before with a pistol under my chin
Lord please

'Cause I know that I've been living wrong
All along, I just didn't wanna be alone
Pray for me, 'cause I know that I've been living wrong
All along, I just didn't wanna be alone

I'm so afraid of me
My demons keep chasing me
There ain't no saving me
I can't get away from me
'Cause I know that I've been living wrong
I can't get away from me
I just didn't wanna be alone
I can't get away from me
I can't get away from me
I can't get away from me

Still running from the Devil, Stiletto's on the gas pedal
Pain so high that she crying in a falsetto
Echos of my last words' louder than her screams
Living in a nightmare, I promised her a dream
But I promise this ain't her, this is me
My life is slipping through my hand, her love's at my feat
I beat myself up 'til my eyes swelled shut
So I can't see the love and the choice that's in front of me, fuck
I feel stuck in a rut, deep pain in my gut
I'm an angel to my demons that duck that cup
Built a wall around my heart not to hide
It's to keep my love safe from what I see inside

Pray for me, 'cause I know that I've been living wrong
All along, I just didn't wanna be alone
Pray for me, 'cause I know that I've been living wrong
All along, I just didn't wanna be alone

I'm so afraid of me
My demons keep chasing me
There ain't no saving me
I can't get away from me
Pray for me 'cause I know that I've been living wrong
I can't get away from me
Pray for me, I just didn't wanna be alone
I can't get away from me
I can't get away from me
I can't get away from