Sad Boy Hours

(album: Nineteen - 2019)

My girl told me not to stress about an image
Cause being personal is how you make it in this business
Sometimes I'm insecure, I'm not afraid to admit it
And when I'm feeling down, that's when my demons tend to visit
I got haters telling me I need to kill myself
After everything I been through yeah I'm still myself
Yeah I make this type of music just to heal myself
Came from the bottom so pardon me if I feel myself
Yeah, aye, and I've always feared commitment
My parents split when I was three, helplessly a witness
But the woman that I'm with right now, got me feeling different
Cause she always hold me down and bring me back, when I'm slipping
I've been stressing on the low, I got people looking up to me
Crazy how I'm getting money just for venting publicly
I hope I'm not alone and you relate to me
Cause alone is a place, where I'd hate to be

Trapped inside my mind, I'm walking on thin lines
I really hope that I don't, fade away
When I reach my time, least I can say I tried
Baby your smile takes the pain away

I try to be there for my family when they need me
The thought of failing to provide, honestly it eats me
And music is my passion, but this music shit ain't easy
Man I don't have a manager or label head to lead me
I'm just doing what I can and hope you fuck with it
Man I'm not making up some gimmick just to run with it
And I won't ever sell my soul, no discussing it
Man I'm just going with my gut, no doubt I'm trusting it
But I be scared to open up because I feel exposed
Cause everyone who knows my secrets yeah they turned ghost
My biggest fear is that the woman that I love, realizes
That I'm just a fucking mess and then she hits the road
And lately all I fucking do is just compare myself
To other people, all the pain I need to spare myself
Yeah, honestly sometimes I fear myself
I guess I had to fall apart, to repair myself

Trapped inside my mind, I'm walking on thin lines
I really hope that I don't, fade away
When I reach my time, least I can say I tried
Baby your smile takes the pain away