Dissolve

(album: trying not to think about it - 2021)

You
Scrolling through your text messages
Oh no

It's drizzling outside, but it's storming in my mind
And the clouds have found their way to my tear ducts
No, I can't keep holding on 'cause the waves are way too strong
And way too deep now

Don't wanna get on these face
I'm the one who needs to change
I just wanna do something for a minute
You know that will solve nothing
I'll afford it at all costs
'Til the sun's down and the dreams come
And I'm singing

I just wanna know if you ever really loved me at all
'Cause everything is different now
And it makes me feel like I could dissolve
Trying not to think about it
But I need more than just a new distraction
Now you should say something back 'fore I vanish into these walls
Oh

Baby, baby, baby, baby
I don't wanna just ghost, don't you float away, babe
My thunder's loud and the lightning's getting even brighter, baby
Yeah, it's shame for all that we wasted

Did you ever let up from your mouth?
Not a sound, no warning, nothing
But you want me to go
You were holding it in
When you should have been holding it down for me
Holding it down

I just wanna know if you ever really loved me at all
'Cause everything is different now
And it makes me feel like I could dissolve (Yeah)
Trying not to think about it
But I need more than just a new distraction
Now you should say something
(You should say somethin') back 'fore I vanish into these walls

Or you'll never see
You'll never see me again
Trying not to think about
How you don't think about me at all, oh
Oh
Mm
Oh-oh
Oh-oh