Shadow Of Myself

(album: Crate Expectations - 2017)

This sickness I'm afflicted with
Has got my brain decaying
Addicted to its wickedness
This dangerous game I'm playing
I know my god has damned me
My fate remains unmolded
Guess it runs in the family
My sense of self corroded
Rage and hatred, untethered
Heads and appendages severed
I can't be saved by confession
Endure this torture forever
This aimless anger will fester
And pain will make me remember
I'm on the edge of life and death
And I ain't getting better
Lungs filled up with sweat and mud
Unclean, diseased, body wet with blood
When it comes to carnage I can't get enough
Ever since mom and dad force fed me some

Way past saving, can't be helped
Just a shadow of myself
Feel your darkness cascade over me
(Cast it over me)
Make me evil, feed me hell
I'm a shadow of myself
Swallow my soul, take control of me
(Taking over me)

Hold your Holy Bibles tight
You're sinking in this swamp
There's no key to your survival
That's a door that's locked
Dissected head to toe
You'll be opened up
The only friend you'll get to know is a loaded gun
My blackened blood is boiling
I feel my fear no more
The scent of dead flesh spoiling
Have I become a corpse?
Spiders climb up my spine
Feel their venom in my veins
This torment is divine
The reaper I'll embrace
When I'm made a god
I will take a bow
Evil forged a bond
She won't break her vows
Now you know the price
Gotta pay it now
If you have a life
Time to lay it down
Heed not the voice of reason
It only tells you lies
Obey your sins and demons
Then see through evil's eyes

Way past saving, can't be helped
Just a shadow of myself
Feel your darkness cascade over me
(Cast it over me)
Make me evil, feed me hell
I'm a shadow of myself
Swallow my soul, take control of me
(Taking over me)

Blood is in the air
My tongue can taste the gore
Smell it on my breath
The flavor I've been craving for
What's the matter, what's happenin'?
I've been served up a platter of pathogens
Trapped within a macabre massacre
By a family of sadistic savages
Ain't seen a chainsaw yet
But I will by the end, I'll bet
I can sense the presence of Evil
Settled deep in this Residence
I've already been through shit
And still haven't seen how bad it gets
Crashing their party, bash in their heads
Pick up a weapon and splatter the rest
This violence has me laughing
After making a massive mess
I guess I'm past the point of saving
I'd rather end up dead
Give in to your temptation
Transcend mortality
Why let yourself be bound by
Mortal morality

Way past saving, can't be helped
Just a shadow of myself
Feel your darkness cascade over me
(Cast it over me)
Make me evil, feed me hell
I'm a shadow of myself
Swallow my soul, take control of me
(Taking over me)
(Take control of me)
(Evil molded me)