Anyway

(album: Captain - 2018)

There's no use trying
You won't like me
Anyway
Anyway
There's no use fighting
You won't like me
Anyway
Anyway (Yeah)

Why do I try to be someone that I'm not?
An introvert, I trip when stepping outside my box
I hate that my tone is fake when talking to someone fake
They probably think I like them, while slithering like a snake (Sssss...)
Like, why do I keep saving all these numbers in my phone?
Of people saying let's get up, we both know that we won't
I swear I got a million contacts, I probably only contact 20
The other half asking me for money
My time is too precious for these hoes (Hoes)
Mi casa, su casa, nigga, no
You speaking that Chewbacca, I'm a trotter of the globe
The el chupacabra will not suck the blood up out this G.O.A.T
Stick the dismount for the gold, and everybody cheers
But, I'm thinking that what I really want is what I fear (Fear)
'Cause I got closer, but I want to run away
I don't feel like being me today, yeah

There's no use trying
You won't like me
Anyway
Anyway
There's no use fighting
You won't like me
Anyway
Anyway

Did you do it different this time?
Ready for the world through the scope of your eyes
Feeling dead alive, I'm steady shifting
Asking what's on my playlist, my intuition
Started adding everything up, and I see the difference
From letting people in and out, the windows tinted, uh
Lord, forgive us, innocence left the building when conditioning, and
Played the victim first, I wonder, who did this to him?
Out of control, will he let it grow? I never know
Never had much of a rock, too many stepping stones
But one glance in the Iris, there's many roads
Doing cardio with heavy souls
Memory jog, hand-in-hand, time spans, connection thin
Here for a moment, then gone when the minute ends
But my soul too large for a small attention span
Guess it is what it is when it hit the fan, and...

There's no use trying (Trying)
You won't like me (Like me)
Anyway (Anyway) (Anyway)
Anyway (Anyway)
There's no use fighting (Fighting)
You won't like me (Like me)
Anyway (Anyway) (Anyway)
Anyway (-Way) (Anyway) (-Way)

Phew...

Imagine you had a dream since you were 16
Imagine you had a scheme since you were 16
And you told yourself you'd do anything for it, but do you even love it?
Do you want to abort? I mean
Like...
Everything seems so fucking ego-driven
Trying to be the things my heroes didn't
Trying to see things like Stevie Wonder
But my eyes closed, I mean, I try
To pose for these pictures, but I'm not happy
I'm just rapping
But, do these words even mean shit in the end?
Uh
One day we all have to become has-beens
Has-been, I mean, I'm tryna' get it right
I mean, I'm on this fucking road, I mean I'm tryna' do it right
I mean, I never had a clue, and I'm just tryna' do a phew...
I wanna' break this fucking glass in my hand
And stare at the pain, and see if it hurts
The same
And just, stare at the pain
And see if it hurts the same, uh
I want to die, but I'm not suicidal
'Cause I don't know what I should live for
I don't know if I should give more
I just take and watch the world burn down
Like Rome, am I Nero?
In his eyes, he's a hero
Feel lower than zero
Negative numbers, I have to start to wonder, uh
What makes me special?
What makes you special?
I met a girl, pretty lovely, I don't think she loves me
But I talk to her anyway, on different days
'Cause I don't even feel connected
When we fucking
I feel like I stick my dick in an empty vessel
I say some shit just to test you
You say you want to get close
I don't believe you, because most women are ghosts
I mean, I see through, I mean, I
I mean, I see through, uh
I put up a facade, like I'm a God
Put up a facade, like I'm a God
But I'm so insecure, I don't know myself, I don't feel my
I don't feel myself the way I probably should
The way I do on songs, that's why it's not that good
When I fake it... I mean, these songs don't mean shit
I mean, these songs don't mean shit
I mean, these songs don't mean shit
I mean, these songs don't mean shit
I mean, these songs don't mean shit, phew...
I'm just thinking about shit I already said
What if I'm not living? I'm already dead?
What if this all just exists in my head?
I swear, I'm being honest... I swear, I'm being honest

One plus one says
I don't like me, yeah
See, use there's no use trying
I don't like me, yeah
I don't like me, yeah
There's no use trying, yeah
I don't like me, yeah
There's no use trying
There's no use trying
I don't like me...
There's no use trying
I don't like me!
There's no use trying
'Cause I don't like me!
There's no use trying
'Cause I don't like me!
You won't like me!
There's no use trying!
There's no use try
Yeah

Legend has it, there was an Intern and a Captain
But, I don't know what happened, uh
One was too humble, and one was too arrogant
Couldn't tell he's his parent's kid
The son of two college professors
Dropped out, still tryna' to do better
Still tryna' see whether
But you can't predict the forecast
I'm just here while it lasts
Puff, puff, I'm taking a drag
Life is a drag, I'm feeling so bad
Like Michael
Jackson, on the wall, no, I'm off of it
I mean, I got a lot of things in my mind, I don't like the politic
I used to watch the news
And now, I watch myself in the mirror to blues
I say, "Hip hop's different"
It's not the music that I used to listen to
Swear, I'm like a different you
Yeah, yeah

No use trying
You won't like me
Any-way-ay-ay-ay-ay-ay-ay
Anyway...