Something Special

(album: While Your Heart's Still Beating - 2022)

Growing up slowly I could hardly wait
Had a book in each hand a heart hungry for praise
Tell me I'm good make my fucking day
Tell me I'm funny make me feel ok
Growing up lonely I could only play
At being somebody's VIP someday
Tell me I'm pretty pick me for your play
Tell me I'm clever give me what I crave

I'm just a heartbeat
In the back seat
I'm just a dead dream
Behind a black screen

You just wanted to be something special, didn't you?
You just wanted to win all the medals, didn't you?
And now your body's showing up the pain like cellophane
And there's a feeling written in your face, a hurricane

Growing up angry I was on my way
Chan in each ear a job I fucking hate
Tell me I'm talented I need a break
Tell me I've got it all to throw away

I'm just a heartbeat
In the back seat
Just a dead dream
Behind a blank screen

You just wanted to be something special, didn't you?
You just wanted to win all the medals, didn't you?
And now your body's showing up the pain like cellophane
And there's a feeling written in your face, a hurricane

And if I only had more time then I would
If I only had money then I could
I'm sick of saying what I think that I could
Maybe the truth is that I can't

You just wanted to be something special, didn't you?
You just wanted to win all the medals, didn't you?