Crosswinds

(album: Far From Familiar - 2016)

[*Phone beeps*]

[Sylvan's stepmother:]
"Hey Sylvan, it's me. Just calling to say that I miss you and to take care of yourself

Hold on Sylvan, didn't I tell you to take out those pork chops?!

And listen, don't get caught up out there in LA"

[Sylvan LaCue:]
Oh yeah, it's good to see you
I know I've been gone for way too long
For too long
I don't call as much and I know you've been blowing up my phone
I know, I've been out here on the road
It's crazy now
Mama they love me
Mama they love me
And nothing compares to when
When you open up your arms and hug me (yeah)
And it's never been realer, it's never been realer
It's never been realer, realer to come back home

Tell me you made me salmon and grits
You know them home-cooked meals getting harder to come across
And tell me Brianne's doing good at school
It's been a bit tougher to be her bigger brother
No sympathy, know it's rougher being a single mother
I know that Pops been calling
I know you sent his number, look
I know he wants to talk it out, I know it's been two summers
Just let me take my time, let's switch the topic
How's Floyd? Is he still on his grind?
You'll find your man... never mind
How's Auntie Dee, and cousin Guida, Grandma Mae and Libby?
Me and Cassandra called it quits for good, I've been too busy
Cali's been fucking with me
I know you stuck and miss me
Appreciate your texts and well-wishes and
Don't you dare get out your seat, I'll clean those dishes
XXL was vicious
You even told your coworkers to vote, it felt like Christmas
It's been a minute since May 2012, La familia
Lately this life's been feeling far from familiar
Planted many seeds that I've been watering down
Slowly accepting this industry, I'm part of it now
That's when I promise you I'm only steps away from the crown
But you just look at me and smile like, "I'm already proud, you've done well"

Yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah
And it's never been realer
It's never been realer
No, mama I love you
I love you
Feels so good to be back home

[Sylvan's stepmother:]
Welcome back home

[Sylvan LaCue:]
How you been doing lately?
I've been moving crazy
Father God forgive me, I know only you can save me
Lost in the world, lost in the world
Maybe success and happiness will come and validate me
I've been acting brash as ever
Know this shit won't last forever
Keep the fam, appreciate the past is weather
Boy, you kept your act together
You could've folded under pressure but you didn't did you? (yeah)
You almost stayed but you had to go get it, didn't you?
Did it, didn't you? (yeah)
You could've sold you soul and had the glor', but you didn't did you?
Yeah, you had some stumbles on this bumpy road, just know you ain't finished nigga
No, no you ain't finished nigga
But these days, my mind stray, I start to pray like "God I've lost perspective"
Like maybe chasing Range's ain't too all impressive
I just turned 25 but borderline I'm narcoleptic
Some things have changed about my world and it's been hard accepting
A wife and kids don't sound as bad as they used to sound
I'm contemplating on that settle-down
Cause I've been on this road for way too long

[Sylvan's mother:]
"Make sure you call me when you land out there. Remember baby, you can always come back home if you need to. I love you"