Selfish

(album: Apologies In Advance - 2018)

Mmmmm, yeah

How do I not know that I am first?
I put all my effort into everyone except the one who hurts
Aim to please I got what you need
Don't reject me I need validated worth
Spread me thin, love to see you win
Pray to God for the better or the worst

And I know I know I know I know
I care about everybody else
I should make some time baby, I need to make time for myself
I know I know I know I know
I worry about everybody else
I should make some time baby, I need to make time for myself

Momma on my phone like... (Brr Brr)
Boy you need to focus on your health
Work out proper, eat more veggies, drink more water
Tomorrows not promised for yourself
I'm distracted this the last time I'm relapsing
Earth & happy potions oh how swell
Now what you up to oh not too much shit let's cut loose
Match in heaven fires set in hell

And I know I know I know I know
I care about everybody else
I should make some time baby, I need to make time for myself
I know I know I know I know
I worry about everybody else
I should make some time baby, I need to make time for myself...

Time
All in due time
I am like God in design
I put my heart on the line
No I'm not the worrying kind
But I can not hurry what's mine
My daddy made dishes & sent me well wishes black chicken rice curry & thyme
Money don't matter my way
Mentals been lathered in rage
Compartmentalizing my judgement on others elitist when asked of my day
They are not better than I
But am I much better than self?
What's better than you as you are?
What's better than truth in yo heart?
I pull up where niggas can't see me
I need some space to move freely
Just in case niggas go postal
Fuck out my way I don't know you
This is not twitter nigga do not be confused by the result of them protools
Let's keep it civil & noble
Gentrification & Whole Foods
I wanna be more than expected
I'm talking well & respected
I'm talking vanity levels that might make the devil look back with obsession
God got a lock on my heart, Lucy clench onto my flesh
You give him the will to seek out on free thrills add a conscience & what you expect

I care about everybody else
I need to make time for myself