Warpaint

(album: Winter Heartbreak II - 2021)

Every morning when I wake up, a couple seconds go by
Where I can't remember that my heart is broken, and I can't feel the pain inside
Suddenly it fucking hits me, I am a loser, a loner, a weirdo
When no one on the planet gets me
It's breakfast time, I need whiskey
These drugs don't even get me high anymore (High anymore)
I am so bad at goodbyes, that it just isn't worth saying "Hi" anymore
Live by the sword, die by the sword!
Live by the ring, die by divorce!
I'd rather lie by the shore, 'til the undertow grabs me
And pulls with the mightiest force
And I'm writing a portrait about my life
I've been so frightened and tortured
Confined by the corners, inside of my mind
It's so violent and morbid
I'm saying goodbye, it's my final performance
I'm leaving, goodbye, it's over, I'm done
I no longer have the will to run

Maybe I should blow my fucking brains out with a gun
Go 'head quit on me and walk away, I guess we're done
All my tears just washed the warpaint right up off my face
Freefall off the planet, freeze to death in outer space
I hope that help is on the way
Stranded in the ocean, I've been drowning now for days
If someone finds me, maybe they will throw me down a rope
I wrap it 'round my neck and let it go, so I can choke
Maybe I should blow my fucking brains out with a gun
Go 'head quit on me and walk away, I guess we're done
All my tears just washed the warpaint right up off my face
Freeze to death in outer space

Broken from shame, I took a razor and opened a vein
I am so numb, didn't notice the pain
We could not settle our differences, because we both are the same
Traces of blood in the snow and the rain, I'm so fucking hopeless
Vultures are circling me while I wrote this
I'm losing my grip, and I'm close to insane
I know that you picture the future without me
I know that you think you'll be truthfully happy
I know that you think there is probably somebody better for you
So just take our fucking future, shred it in two
Extinguish my flames when sparks fly
A flower can't grow under a dark sky
Every time I feel my heart die (Heart die)
I make my art cry and I'm (Art cry and I'm, art cry and I'm)

Maybe I should blow my fucking brains out with a gun
Go 'head quit on me and walk away, I guess we're done
All my tears just washed the warpaint right up off my face
Freefall off the planet, freeze to death in outer space
I hope that help is on the way
Stranded in the ocean, I've been drowning now for days
If someone finds me, maybe they will throw me down a rope
I wrap it 'round my neck and let it go, so I can choke

I swear to fucking God, sometimes I feel like I am just a victim of my own psyche
I swear to fucking God, that every single day I try to tell myself I don't like me
You ain't gotta leave the house today
Fuck seeing people, fuck seeing the sun
Deep on the inside, my feelings are numb
And I hold in the smoke, 'til it eats through my lungs
And you looking at a person that's so damaged demonic
I need a glass of ocean water, and an anti-psychotic
And I don't care about the money, and the fame or the commas
I fantasized about the day that I can let go with the drama
That's what's squeezing out my lungs, that put calluses on my hard feet
All that agony has been calcified in my heartbeat
Battle on, we went from being sinners in Babylon
And now we at the end of the halcyon
I never asked to exist, how the fuck could I feel passion for this?
If I am not scared to death, why the fuck am I so scared to taking an actual risk?
There's so much love and compassion inside me
Instead of attacking and fighting my actual enemies
I'd rather smash through the bricks, until I crack both my fists

Maybe I should blow my fucking brains out with a gun
Go 'head quit on me and walk away, I guess we're done
All my tears just washed the warpaint right up off my face
Freefall off the planet, freeze to death in outer space
I hope that help is on the way
Stranded in the ocean, I've been drowning now for days
If someone finds me, maybe they will throw me down a rope
I wrap it 'round my neck and let it go, so I can—